Hello... Im new I believe I have Aspergers/Autism ... I took the online test and scored 37 ... then I began to read posts in here... It was like reading my life story... This has prompted me to go to my GP and ask for a proper diagnosis which she is doing... Autism explains so much of how and why my life was/is a mess... I always thought of myself as a social misfit... I never felt comfortable in groups or in social settings... school was a living nightmare for me... I was "different" and was bullied very badly... I always played on my own in the playground... all I remember is confusion and too many people ... and fear... my life has been dogged by fear and anxiety... and Im no different to this day.
My Sister is married with kids... 2 of which are severly Autistic and it has since been discovered that it is in the family ... maybe going back generations... It was watching her kids that I saw simularities in my own childhood behaviour...
This explains so much to me about me and why I never "fitted in" .. and why I prefered to be on my own ... I used to go into my Mom's room and stay in the cubbyhole my dad made there as an extra attic space... I would be in there for hours... preferring in there to playing in the street with other kids... I could list hundreds of simular things... My GP said that I displayed classic autistic traits... and is setting up an assessment... All I want is to understand myself better and to make sense of a life of confusion and maybe to have some kind of help... Posting this is a first for me... I read a lot of other people's posts and identify with them... but i have never written like this before... so bear with me if things are coming out sort of tumbled... Thank-you for this site.