Well I don't know much what to post except I am a life long stoner, who has let his habit control him, hell it dont even do anything but calm some nerves now, like a cig supposed to do.. And now I am drinking far more than I ever have, and wanting to drink more to drowned out all this chaos and confusion in my heart, soul and mind. I wirte this as I am have intoxicated.. Pathetic of me.. So tired..