My problem is (I think) pretty simple .
I have a HUGE self-esteem issue, and I try my best to take care of it . But I don't know how .
The only times when I feel in control and ready to speak my mind, and when I don't care about what other people think, is when I'm angry .
Anger brings out a ruthless side of me that stops at nothing .. Then, I leave no room for "No" .

I just wish I could be that at all times, like find a trigger or something .. Because I'm really tired of being shy, losing my words at every confrontation (even when I'm right or innocent), hesitating, panicking when I'm the center of attention, and even being unable to defend myself physically/verbally and fight for what I really care about .

Any tips or suggestions ? It's killing me ..