I can totally relate Melissa. Do any of us really want the meds, probably not. I really really want off them.

Going off all of them tho, cold turkey...eeeeks. I know it's tempting , but it really isn't a good idea for a lot of us. You have the right idea about talking to your pdoc about the seroquel. Hopefully they will help you taper off. I know some people have gone off their meds and have done ok. But I think for most of us a very slow, well thought out, well planned attempt would be for the better. I've been working towards getting med free at a very slow pace. I did drop from six meds to 2 meds, but I think the last two meds will be the hardest. I honestly think it might take me a year or more to actually come off the last two.

If you want to try the med free route then I think it's really important to pick up as many skills and tools as you can, and develop them as much as you can. Everything from sleep routine, diet, exercise, meditaion or tools for the mind, perspective. I know you've been working hard on things. Just keep going with that. I think if it's well planned out and slow enough the chances of success can be higher.

I think it's pretty natural to have the want to try and do this own with out meds, you will never really know till you try, but careful planning and safety nets I think are almost a must.