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Irreplaceable · Apr 03, 2012, 11:14 AM

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Originally Posted by NotCrazyLikeYou

Yes, it's called having a low self-esteem with anxiety. You start to doubt whether you're cool enough to be bipolar. You look in the mirror, you hesitate. It's a standard of excellence, so of course, you're going to sometimes question whether you got hired based on your resume, the color of your skin, the size of your penis, etc

This is the true test.

Take a piece of paper and start writing down all the stupid, insane crap you've done in your life, list them all out, and if you can see a picture of a deranged person, then you're probably doodling and you can't follow simple directions. But post your results anyway, we need a drawing/art thread here

O.M.G. This is why I love this board...You all ALWAYS manage to say/type things that i NEVER thought of...

First of all, I was diagnosed as only "severly depressed" but I feel as if I am bipolar. Damn near every bipolar symptom, I have. When I was very young, my grandmother told my dad I had it. I believe that she had it, my dad has it, and my uncle (his brother) had it. I relate waaaaay more to people in this section of the board vs. the depression section. There are a million other reasons why I think I'm bipolar, but not enough time to get into.

When I was diagnosed with severe depressions, PDOC described me as having "low self esteem" (I think I'm the flyest thing walking so I didn't understand that low self esteem just doesn't mean how you think you look). Anyway, he prescribed Effexor...It didn't really do anything for me. I didn't feel different or any better...Felt the same, and stopped taking it.

What you said Crazy, that describes how I have been feeling, in a sense. It's like, I know what I am and how I feel and what category that falls under, but I doubt it from time to time. I was wondering why I was doubting myself so much when the signs are all there and I believe in how I feel. But the issue is the low self esteem thing which has caused me to have doubts.

@ Bow...I want to ask a PDOC for a mood stabilizer. My reactions are ridiculous right now. I read stories on here and people who have extreme mania and I didn't think I ever had mania until I really think about some of the things I have done in the past.

After reading so much on here, I think I'm not alone in how I feel. Some days I feel OK. I'm thinking, "I got this! I can keep it under control!". These are the days where I start to believe that I'm making things up. But then there are days where I totally flip. My fiance told me last weekend that the look on my face when I flip, I change to a different person. Like I'm on drugs or something. Moments like that make me realize that something isn't right. Up and down up and down. That's how I feel...

Edit: Forgot to add I have only been to a PDOC twice. If i see a doc consistently, I would probably get better results...Ehhhh..