I can totally relate to this. Actually, I can relate to most of it. I wish I could say, "from personal experience, I know that it gets better", but I can't. So we just have to trust our T's. Mine says that by talking about the CSA, it becomes more bearable to live with. I don't feel that way now, I feel like it makes it hurt a hundred times more, but he is such a sweet and gentle person that I can't imagine him lying to me. I think it's like Winston Churchill said, "When you're going through hell, keep going."