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Originally Posted by bowhunt72
What if she improves herself too? I know she is also in counseling and seems to be working hard at it. What if she stops being a horrible wife and we want each other again? How will each of us know if the other is worth risking our hearts on again?
One other source of frustration - in yet another former life I was a professional writer. I look back over my posts and the way people responded and think "that's not how I meant it!". I'm supposed to be good at this - I have a degree in it and I used to make my living writing. Why can't I make my posts come out the way I'm really thinking and trying to express myself? Confuses the heck out of me. I never know if people are responding to a mistaken impression because I didn't word my post well enough or if they are reading me just fine and seeing right through me and offering perspectives I hadn't considered. AAARRRGGGHHH!!! Frustrating!!!
Rose - this is frustration with myself and my thinking and my writing, not with your response. I really do need to take a while and think about what you said.
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I think the answer to that question harkens back to many moons ago when you asked yourself or someone close and wise, "how will I know I'm ready"? Or "how do I know if I am in love?"
If you have to ask, you aren't ready. And
When you are ready, you will just know.
re: the writing thing. This is a place where we share our thoughts, feelings, ideas, etc. we are speaking (err, writing) from our hearts to others that can relate, empathathize, lend an eye, understand, send a hug or thank you, so it makes sense that our writings sometimes get confusing, jumbled, are out there, may change on a daily (or even hourly) basis. It's emotional writing. And a lot of time, it's purely stream-of-consciousness.
When we are frustrated, hurt, terrified, happy (well, as happy as we can be), venting, we are not writing as journalists.
I'm not sure of your specialty/field; however, I imagine, it was something where you had to do research, check your facts, check your facts, check your facts ... write to a demo, about a certain topic and remain even-keeled and impartial.
And you had an editor and publisher that you worked with. And maybe even a Cub.
Keep writing. You are fine! You are making sense of things and getting it out / working through things. The more you write, and communicate, the better.