I have a feeling this thread will get deleted, or complained about, or whatever else people will do about what I'm going to post here. I want to post this anyway.

Lately things had gotten to the point where I was convinced I just shouldn't exist anymore. I had planned to do something about that today. There's a reason for why today...but that's probably not important. Obviously I didn't do anything. I drove to the tallest building I knew I could get to the roof of (6-story parking garage), got to the roof...and just sat there for awhile. Then I drove away. I'm not sure why. I don't feel any better.
I've been thinking alot about music lately...no matter how horrible things get it's something I always care about. Other people are even starting to notice my music. Maybe that's the reason for how things turned out today. Who the hell knows...