So.. On another note. I just got a response from a psychiatrist. I literally asked if and where can I do the DIB-R test to know whether or not I have BPD.

His answer was somewhat like.. "People read medical books and think that they have diseases but a little bit of out of the ordinary behaviour is normal. We all have small things we do that can relate to different diseases"

basically.. Blahblahblah - stop reading stuff and don't diagnose yourself - blahblahblah.

WHY THE **** DID I WRITE TO YOU THEN?!?!

I WANT a diagnosis. I'm not trying to give myself one. I'm trying to get the help I need. And he pretty much told me to stop imagining things. **** off, you old dickhead.