Being out of work has brought more stress on me than anything else in my life. A counselor suggested I think about trying to find work again. I can't even get passed the thought that I wouldn't be hired by anyone. (I was let go from a number of jobs. The repeated firings became traumatic.)

I've reported ups and downs here. Now it's down again, very down. I just want to go back to bed. I think I am getting worse in general. Well, I am. I don't even really want to get better. That's awful to say, I know.

Coming to PC has been the bright spot in my day. Very nice and kind things have been said to me. That does warm my heart. Now I am crying - because off-line there is relentless failure . . . and no one to say any kind thing. I am making no attempt. So what should I expect.