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I don’t know if I should look for more evidence or look for evidence against like my psychologist always says.
Everything is changing – but I’m scared everything else will stay the same.
What if there is no evidence against – if it is all for I’m screwed.
I think something is going to happen soon – my psychologist doesn’t – she said she’d be straight on the phone to the police if she thought I was in danger.
I believe her - but I believe myself as well.
It’s all so confusing. I can't tell what is right or real, I don't understand why it's so hard. Is it my delusions getting worse or my real life?
If I get proof that would be so awesome 100% proof – I coud show them and I’d get off the meds and I’d get protection.
I just want to prove something for the last time I see my psychologist – either for or against.
If I talk to the stalker I might get proof – but my psychologist said I’d be putting myself at risk, but it could be the answer.
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If giving in is pointless, then get out of bed or this might be the end.
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