Confusing

I don’t know if I should look for more evidence or look for evidence against like my psychologist always says.

Everything is changing – but I’m scared everything else will stay the same.
What if there is no evidence against – if it is all for I’m screwed.

I think something is going to happen soon – my psychologist doesn’t – she said she’d be straight on the phone to the police if she thought I was in danger.
I believe her - but I believe myself as well.

It’s all so confusing. I can't tell what is right or real, I don't understand why it's so hard. Is it my delusions getting worse or my real life?

If I get proof that would be so awesome 100% proof – I coud show them and I’d get off the meds and I’d get protection.
I just want to prove something for the last time I see my psychologist – either for or against.

If I talk to the stalker I might get proof – but my psychologist said I’d be putting myself at risk, but it could be the answer.

It's all for they are just mocking me now.

Ah, that sounds like a tough situation to be in.

I don't know if looking at it this way will help you, but in law they teach us that nothing is ever 100% proven. There will always be people who doubt you.

The BBC website has a good list of stuff you can do about stalking: http://www.bbc.co.uk/insideout/yorks...g_advice.shtml

The saddest part is that none of those things really make a difference unless your stalker just happens to be intimidated by them.

Thanks - but there are just so many involved that nothing I do seems to help.

None of the stalking helplines can help with gang stalking they know how hard it is to prove to other people.

I'm just going to be stuck with it - until the day it happens.

KUREHA, I've felt like this for a long time. I wish I had a magic method you could use to help. I moved. It helped a little but the world looks far too strange for people like you and me. I withdrew hard from society. The doctors say that isn't the right thing to do but I have to say it helped me to cope with it. I only go out for basic needs and when I have to. For a time it helps with getting one adjusted and to not believe everyone is a stalker.

I truly wish you the very best and pray for your safety and happiness. Take good care of yourself.

(((KUREHA))) - you spend a lot of mental energy on worrying about your safety and so far you're still okay. How about you try this for a week - imagine all your worries are in a box on a shelf. Live free for this week doing what you normally do, minus all the worries. Don't entertain any of the worries when they pop up and tell yourself you're fine. Try this little vacation free of worries and see how it goes.

MickG – It’s hard isn’t it, I don’t know what I’m supposed to do, I know there is only 1 way out, but that isn’t what I want to do.
I don’t go out much either – expect when I was trying to get proof, last week.

Lynn P – I can’t because I constantly see them, they are always following me around.

Something is really confusing me, I hope it isn't the meds

What are you confused about? Or do you mean you are confused for no discernible reason?

Yeah like I can't work things out.

People are telling me things and why can't I see it their way, it's just so hard
Then the people that agree with me, confuse me because of what some one that I trust tells me.

I want it to be the other way, but I can't see it. I can't even tell if I'm sick. Just know what I see.

That's a tough one! It could be meds; it could be some "illness"; or it could just be that you see the world very differently from how other people do!

It's because I'm a target isn't it
I knew it would have to suck.

The nurse didn't say the meds would confuse me and I guess by now I'd know if I was sick.

So it's like 80% target 20% meds, just in case the nurse lied to me

I'm going to go

Go where?

Just off here a bit, it's confusing me.

I don't like being a target. I just want it all to go back to how it used to be.

It's because it's all new to me - my psychologist has seen it before, I haven't - it's good to be believed.

I have been under surveillance for almost ten years. I don't understand what they want.
I moved away but the surveillance was still there. I think it's because of the schizophrenia. People just don't understand. I am not a violent schizophrenic. So why have I been under surveillance. I wish I could just have a vacation, and get away from it all. I mean a real vacation, like to the Bahamas. I hope you can figure things out Kureha.

Thanks - sorry it happens to you as well.

I've just been followed all day - went out with my friend and we got constantly followed by cars and helicopters and people on bikes.

I knew things were getting worse - I know something will happen

The helicopters are driving me crazy. There is a helicopter training facility near by. They fly
over the house about every half hour. I know they are using infrared cameras to watch me.
I see cars parked on my street that don't belong to anyone I know. It's hard, but I keep telling myself it will be ok. I hope nothing bad happens to you. I like reading your post's.
Good luck

I hope the cars collide with one another and leave you alone.

sardean - It sucks doesn't it - I'm sick of them.

MickG - Thanks - they kept driving past each other yesterday and following behind.

It was intense yesterday - I've never seen so many, my friend and I were totally freaked out.

I don't want to go out - but I only have 1 last chance to impress my psychologist - so I know what I've got to do.

It's just it's all new to me.

Is your friend a witness for you? In other words, do they see the stalking as plainly as you do? If so, perhaps they could write an account for you to show others as proof. Take good care of yourself.

They won't believe her - she's a bit crazy - I don't think her meds are working, bipolar I think.

My other friend doesnt totally believe me - so I'm left on my own with it.

I really feel so angry and frustrated for all of you that are having to put up with stalking and surveillance. It's not fair. You shouldn't have to live that way. I sincerely hope you will all be able to keep yourselves safe, and that nothing bad will happen.

I don't know what to do about mine. I'm taking my camera everywhere though because they are really freaking me out.