Well it has started again. I am afraid but trying to keep grounded.
The court date has come and gone and I rcvd my first cs check. The first and only I will ever rcv. Something must have happened because it was paid that same day. I assume he got a reduction...regardless, I don't care.
I rcvd a text from an unknown number with his company name and a lol statement. He clearly thinks he won at something. So it has started again.
I made the mistake of going to the police to report the violation of the restraining order. They were no help and said they could do nothing but talk to him. THAT WILL ONLY ANGER HIM MORE. He will surely come after us now., he will now react and start custody issues again. I am afraid and tired. I cried and begged the police officer to let it go and just disregard the police report that was filed. He said he couldn't and wouldn't. What he failed to realize or accept is the fact that this will only anger my ex and he will now fight and harrass me more than ever. He had me speak to a victims advocate person in the police station, she got it, but didn't really understand that he will continue. That I had to be strong, ect., ect., ect.,. Well that was a waste of time and energy.
Today I will pray that police report is pushed aside and that cop (head of the division) will do nothing. When I tried to explain this would only anger my ex and if there was nothing he could do, please don't do anything. Words will mean nothing. That my ex if angered would only go after custody as a result. He stated that was out of his department and that was for the courts to decide custody issues. HE DID NOT GET IT!!
My mistake, I should have just let this go. Ignored the harrassement. Now a can of worms has been opened and my ex will surely be angrier than ever.
It was suggested that I see a therapist to help me. WTF?? How am I the bad or crazy one here? I don't want money, don't want cs, I just want to be left alone. Now I have surely angered someone who thinks this is a game. I'm scared and worried now more than ever
God how I pray for peace.
Please pray for me because I'm out of options...damn why did I even bother going to the police. RO's mean nothing unless you are almost killed.