I struggle with migraines and other painful health issues. It's a struggle to get through each day at times.

Tonight, I have group T....and I hate it when I struggle with deciding whether or not to go to group. Each and every time I've struggled with the decision - I've always - ALWAYS - decided to go...Sometimes I was glad I did, other times, not so much.

I was hit with a horrific migraine, and I am now in the hangover phase where I am feeling incredibly weak, tired and achy. I can't imagine taking a shower let alone going to group in 2 hours....I haven't eaten because the thought of eating makes me sick.

Some of my group members have expressed their appreciation of me attending group even though I'm unwell....they say they'd rather have me there, even just to listen, than to miss group. That helps me feel incredibly valued and cared for - but also adds to the pressure that I feel when making this decision.

Blech.

Since I know myself well enough that I will feel intense pressure to go, as the time gets closer....I need to learn to stop with the struggling to make that decision. But I feel soooo yucky right now. Too tired and weak to even move.....

Hate this.