My team. I hate them!

They're forcing me to go back to Sheppard Prat and they're telling me that I have parts that are dangerous and trying to hurt me and I don't believe them. They're so full of crap. I want to stay here with my dog. And then they want me to go to a group home. I was finally starting to see happiness and light and now they want me to enthrall myself in the mental health world.

My therapist left me. Via a letter addressed to my team saying I was too severe and convinced everybody that I am "so sick" and then has been telling me for three months that I am "not sick".

So shouldn't she had been extra sure I'm really not sick, before she went around convincing me I wasn't? "We'll just tell every patient they're not sick. Oops I came across one that was, my bad!"

I wrote her an email today with a few choice words in it.

I hate them for making me do this. The rest of my team said that if I don't do this that they can't help me either. So what I'm left without services at all? And it's all because of HER and what she said about me. Before she existed they handled me just FINE. We've been together for four years. And if I loose them, then I loose my housing. So I'd be a homeless person that's mentally ill, all because I didn't want to go back to Sheppard Prat. And Sheppard Prat only takes people who are suicidal and I'm NOT. Other parts are. So what am I supposed to lie about that? I'm not lying.

They're forcing me into all this crap that I don't want to do and nobody is listening to what I WANT.