Yes I was bothered and I apologize for being so flip. Its not a good day for me to be posting obviously so I will make this my last. It just came across for me, personally as oversimplified and ignorant of the complexities at play. It felt like another on of the zillion..... just do this and life will be fine. Just relax, just breath, just think happy thoughts. All good advice but when in the grip of hell just serve to make me feel worse. I am doing those things and more. I am exhausted from the effort. Its not that simple! If it were I would be cured. If it were and I couldn't that makes me even a bigger loser and waste of air. I just don't get it! That's what ends up swirling in my thoughts. Can't just one person understand how very hard this is and just tell me they are sorry I feel so badly and leave it at that? Why do people think they know what I am going through if they haven't been through this themselves? That's how my warped brain takes your simple act of kindness and turns it into something else.

I know you are here to help people and that you are a valued regular on PC.

I know that living with bi-polar et. al. is about the tool kit one accumulates over time. I am an avid tool collector and I practice using my tools regularly. I know what tools to use and when and how even when I am late on the task.

Its all such high-maintenance. These stretches of time when every single moment is spent in mood management mode are life draining.

My apologies again Lynn.