It feels like ages since I've slept. Yesterday, I woke up at 6:57pm completely bewildered that I'd fallen asleep sometime between 12-1pm. My sleep has flip flopped. I seem to be on Australian time. I blame that on Illegal Toilet and choocha for being so interesting. Truth is that it's my own fault. I know this.
Nothing works anymore. My sleep cannot be measured in milligrams. Zolpidem, melatonin, trazadone, haldol, seroquel, xanax, ativan, valium, klonopin...let me count the ways I used to love you when I could sleep.

You never helped me like they said you would. I'm always left in a cloud of foggy disbelief, hugging my pillow and whispering sweet nothings into the abyss that time left with us.

I try meditating. I try making it cold in here. I try tea. I try everything. I google: help me sleep. please help me sleep. 1, 2, 3 sheep help me sleep.
My boyfriend snores peacefully beside me.

I pretend it does not matter because I'm afforded the opportunity to be able to not work. The government is nice like that.
School starts in two days. I can't concentrate when I do not sleep right.

Any ideas?