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Originally Posted by amandalouise
believe it or not you will still be doing your internal talking out problems, plans and anything else you talk to your alters about..
normal non DID people carry on internal dialogues, internal discussions too.
today I had a fantastic internal dialogue with myself about what I want to do vs things I need to do vs what I should be doing today. right now Im having an internal dialogue with myself about what I want to wear and where I would like to go as my wife and I have decided to go out tonight.
normal non DID people have all the same internal dialogues with their self that DID people have with their internal system of alters..
you will just get your answers a different way, instead of the alters answering , you will know the answers because everything they are will have merged together with you.
I dont need to say hey Sunny what do you want to wear if we go to the movies? now my internal dialogue is hey I wonder what I should/want to wear tonight, the red shirt looks great on me, maybe Ill go for the white off the shoulders its nice too...
its alot easier now that everyone has merged with me because theres no more fighting, no dont wear that it... wear this one no wear that, come on already just grab something....being integrated the information I need to make the decision is right there already.
you will also have conversations with those friends, and family that are in your life.
integration is a change but you wont lake for internal conversation.. some of the greatest debates I get into is with myself. lol
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It is funny because the way you discribe your inner dialogue is the same way a friend (non DID) described hers to me years ago. It is also the same reason I started questioning myself about the way my thoughts worked. It was the first time I became aware that my thought process was not like the people around me. How you scribe your thinking is unknown to me in a practical way, but it gives me a frame work to understand that I can integrate and not lose myself. That has been a concern of mine, losing myself. Thanks