((((((((rainbow)))))))

That stinks that you have to wait once you'd made up your mind and were expecting to start the group.

What you wrote above reminded me of something I read in an article a while back. (here is a link to the article: http://internationalpsychoanalysis.n..._2011_July.pdf). The author talks about the fact that kids need to be able to experience failure and disappointment and struggle in order to be able to cope with the big disappointments and struggles that they're likely to experience as an adult. They're basically saying that if we sweep in and save our kids from all of their bad feelings, they'll never learn the skills they need as adults through coping with the child-size things that happen.

I know you said your mom was maybe overprotective. I wonder if some of what you are experiencing is the result of that? If you never learned to deal with small disappointments, it would be very hard to know how to deal with big ones!

About e-mailing your T...I really DO get that feeling of having to tell T something right NOW...sometimes I will write a letter to bring to session, or write an e-mail and not send it, and usually by the next morning, the urgency has passed.

Hang in there, ((((rainbow)))). You're working hard!