Thank you for your reply C: But, as unbelievable as it sounds, they are trying to "thwart" me. I have tried medication and was stuck on a medication that made me sleep continuously, but they did nothing about it but stuck me on MORE medication, which made me lash out and always feel sick. They refused me counseling for the longest time, until five years after my diagnosis. My counselor came to my school once every two weeks (That hardly happened because I was always too tired, depressed, and manic to go to school. She also missed A LOT of appointments). After a year and I moved to another school, she dumped me and I was left on my own until now. I've only seen him once in that past six months because of my crappy Case Manager, Denish. Who is avoiding me like I'm a disease, "strangely" enough. He knows he's in the wrong and his job is on the line for his crap.

On Wednesday, the day of my appointment for this week, they rescheduled me from 2:30pm to 4:30pm (They close at 5pm). When I got there at 4:20pm, I waited and I waited till the clock hit 4:55pm exactly before they came and got me. Because of my OCD, I try to keep tabs on the time. Plus, I was texting my friend complaining about the service they are providing me with. I found out that this appointment was a "Check Up" and not a full hour appointment to help me as they said they would. The moment I sat down, I began to tell them my feelings and also what's been going on these past seven months with Mental Health. I wanted them to take into account of outward conflicts instead of simply inward conflicts. Everything I said, he contradicted, as I mentioned before. They wouldn't listen to me about anything. They had it in their minds that I was Bi-Polar and manic, so therefore I'm crazy and I just need medication. I finally got frustrated and asked for a screening, which they asked me "What for??" as if I don't have a right to ask for one.

I am not manic. These "doctors" are just rude, inconsiderate people who don't care at all about what happens to others.

I was prescribed "Geodon" and "Benedryl (For Insomnia)". Take a look at those two medications and tell me they know what they're doing. I have a history of extreme depression. I've been 51-50ed (Crisis Intervention Report Code) six times in only one year because of my depression while on medication. I won't be taking medication if they won't listen to me. I'm not going to kill myself over a medication fit. They don't even follow up on when I take medication. The "follow-up appointment" will most likely be in December. Just like how it has been for the last ten years.

I don't mean to sound offensive or attacking, just talking about it makes me frustrated and feel hurt :/