Oh I hear you Rose, but the key is that you have to push yourself for a while too. You just have to get yourself used to a "new" rythum and that takes time to establish.

You have to be willing to get up in the morning with the idea that you are just NOT going to give up on yourself, no matter what that morning grog tells you.

And you should see if there are any Pool Arobics classes as well Rose. This is an activity that can bring you into more of a connection with others than just going and swimming alone.

As far as meeting "new" people Rose, you have to realize that "most" people will play the role of "you servicing their needs" if you train them to. And you have to make a decision ahead of time that if you "try" to be around others who can "lead" you and inspire you, that it won't effect your ego in that you begin to feel like you do with BF.

(((Hugs)))
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