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Originally Posted by dark_heart_x
For me it's the lack of focus and racing thoughts. I can't read. I make mistakes. I lose everything. I forget what I was doing and saying. I can't get organized. The level of disorganization of thoughts has a profound effect in my life that is tremendous.  |
Me too! Pre-meds it was (i thought) caused by the raciness. It was like if my thoughts were butterflies but I was in a butterfly storm so I'd try to follow one butterfly/Train of thought which would tak all of my concentration but was impossible, because following one thought when there were so many was too distracting, and I'd forget which thought I had been looking for in the first place.
Now I still can't think, though it is easier to get routine stuff done (go the humble list) but at work I just can't think at all. I forget what I am trying to do constantly and then feel stressed as I know I'm meant to be able to do us. Worst thing is its a new job in a new country which I have all the skills, but can't seem to get my self together to do, and the drugs have taken away my cover as normally my hypo manic self could put on a "confident" face.
I want my brain back, I know I'm really smart but I'm too mudded up to use it :/
Anyhow, know how you guys feel