It is good that you realize this is a trigger for you. I hope you can reach a point where you can understand that trauma for each individual is their trauma, and comparison is not really possible. We have soldiers coming back in droves from war traumatized and struggling with PTSD. Their pain and struggle is no less than mine from childhood trauma. Different. Yes. Less than. No.

A few years ago, my husband was walking the property at the hotel where he works when a woman threw herself off the 9th floor balcony in order to kill herself. She literally landed in front of him, and she was not dead. He held her and administered aid until the paramedics arrived; the whole time she was begging him to let her die. He was very traumatized by that event. Not a childhood trauma, but extremely traumatizing to him.

One thing we learn is that our pain and trauma is very individual and really cannot be compared to any degree to the severity of anyone else's pain and trauma. It is all painful and very difficult to recover from. I hope you can find healing from your own pain.