Sigh* I feel really "slow right now" with trying to understand this-- what is the big picture ...
Perhaps this can not be answered with a general broad question....
I don't want to ramble on with this but I just don't get -- What is the Big Picture-- I ask that and I can come up with a few "big pictures" ones that are from one extreme to another......
One that makes me feel a little better is sadly the one that comes to the conclusion that Nothing Really matters then right?
As Just posted a little bit ago in my other problematic Thread:
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Maybe the big picture is that a human is a small spec on this giant planet, and this giant planet is a small spec in this enormous galaxy, and this enormous galaxy is a small spec in the infinite universe .... just maybe that is the big picture-- so nothing matters right 
I had been thinking on that here the last hour or so.... guess I should be careful with how black and white thinking of extremes I go....
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It makes me feel better to the fact of it supports that bad thinking of mine some days of -- Throw away these emotions
what good are they any ways? which I do realize is not a healthy -- due to we need emotions to some extent.
It makes me feel sad/down at the same time due to- It is like with this idea of "the big picture" every emotion I feel has no validation-- which is not good just as it sounds....
I will continue to think on- what is the big picture.... however there are at times I think-- this is like asking what is the meaning to life-- there could be so many answers, but nothing of absolute....
Perhaps I again and Boarding of what this means, and not being specific.. or taking the words to another literal sense-- but then I can tunnel visions it as well... where is the grey that I see at times, I am having problems finding it right now--- perhaps it will hit me here soon...
But some thoughts may help from others as well...
Maybe I should try to use this "big picture" on another simplistic problem? Perhaps then I would get it? Maybe....
may be-- the big picture is that I am allowing my conscious fear of mine (that of being re-traumatized) to be a big factor of not wanting to get hurt again, and seeing that with what had happened I had felt a little "re-traumatized" that is a big factor here, I am just protecting myself right now even more so than I was before with the fear? maybe.. but isn't that still a "small big picture"....