I'm going to go out on a limb here...

I was just watching my two girls head off to school. First day of this school year and my brain went immediately to all the bad things that could happen with the other kids. Soon I was lost in thoughts of protecting them and the evils that could happen. This triggered me into thinking the way I used to and i caught myself before any rage developed. I have serious issues with this, just like you.

I don't trust people and I always see the dark potential that people have. It's really hard to get past that as I have paranoia of people too. I'm getting better, but ONLY WITH TREATMENT! It's not something I could even get a handle on before treatment.

If your like me, your childhood was nothing but abuse in school by others. You would have developed serious self destructive behavior, to the point that you were willing to hurt yourself first, before any one else could do it. So if your anything like me, please please talk to your social worker.

My point is that, if your anything like me, there are triggers and you need to really pay attention and try to find them. A lot of things can trigger us into our rage and its so important to pay attention and try to figure them out. only then can we get a grip on what's happening and why.

I'm sorry if I'm wrong and you don't relate, but I had to try!

Best of luck and keep us posted!