I just scored 100% in LOW self Esteem.....Could it be from 1)The Childhood Sexual Abuse and Rape?
2) Being divided and blamed for the probs of my parents marriage?
3) trying to end my life, and FAILIng
4)Hate myself, the way i look, my body,
5) Found a guy to love me, when i was 15....and today married to him have 3 kids, 2.6yr daughter,1.4yr son and 3mnth old daughter....and find out yet again he is cheating on me....was i ever good enough for anything? or anyone? he not only promised me at the alter but after giving me STD(after repeatedly having non protected sex with prostitutes etc and coming home and 'loving' the clueless me) promised to stop...but it never has! why am i in this life...what is my value? how do I cope? i gave up everything to make our life ...to support him...now i have no friends, No Hope and he says He can now write a book on how many diff ways he can kill me and everything associated with me...So Who is messed up? Me or Am i a magnet for all the psychos out there????? Will i give my kids the same fate? or do I leave them to him to destroy............WHAT HAVE I DONE?????????[/quote]