I'm sorry to start a whole new thread, but I couldn't really choose a category since there are so many different things I would like to talk about, and I am sure a lot of you can relate. I need to get some realistic advice (hopefully) from people who have been in my situation and from anyone who may know how to help or has helped themselves out of the situation. So I will just tell my story, for who ever will take the time to read it and understand. I want you to know, if you do read this, I really sincerely appreciate it!

I am a 19 year old female. I have had social anxiety since I was a child. When I was in probably 3rd grade, one of my friends from school called me fat. That was the first time I got called fat, btw. I have always been a little bigger. I'm not hugely obese, my BMI is 25 or something, so it is only one over the average limit, but still "over weight". I have never looked good or been comfortable with my body. I got my first boyfriend when I was in 7th grade, and when ever we got into fights he would call me a ***** and a slut and a ***** and pretty much every bad name you could think of. He also used to tell me to lose weight all the time, which I believe is why I feel so down on myself. I don't know what to do to lose weight. I try to eat healthy but I can't always afford it. I go for walks all the time but all of my weight is carried in my belly area mostly, and my hips and my back. I don't really know how to get rid of it anymore, I've tried crunches but that doesn't make it go away. I also have ugly inner thighs I just want to have a nice body so that I can feel comfortable with myself, I don't even like looking at myself naked let alone letting my current boyfriend see me naked. I wear baggy clothes to cover it up for the most part, and I would like to dress nice and look good for when I go out and stuff, but I always feel like I look ugly in clothes that are "cute"... What kind of diets can I try? What kind of exercises can I do to help lose my belly, back, and thigh fat? I'm embarassed even writing this but I don't know what to do.. I feel so down on myself all the time, I cant afford a gym member ship and I am too embarassed to work out in public anyways. I have no equipment at home. Not to mention it has been like a billion degrees outside so it feels miserable out there... I also am a smoker so running is difficult for me, although I do it sometimes with my puppy, I just run until I have trouble breathing then walk until I feel up for it again...

Anyways, if there is anything any of you can suggest for me, I would really appreciate it guys.. Thank you