it gets easier the longer you go. put the blades somewhere that's difficult to get to, so that even if you decide to cut yourself you have to think a little before you can actually do it. do you have a friend you can talk to? you can always send me a private message. it helps to have someone to talk to about it, and even to check in on you. that's how I stopped - a friend asked me every single day if I had, so I stopped cutting to be able to tell her no.