I think I'm going to do it...

I mean what's stopping me. I need it. Its just a little bit. Idk why I've been trying so hard not to SI. What's the point?

The point is to find a healthier way to deal with your emotions, because in the end SI doesn't really help, it only distracts you for a little while.

But idk how to find that healthy way. There isn't anything else that helps.

are you seeing a T? excercise, like cutting, releases endorphins, and is much healthier. Eating dark chocolate can make you feel good. Journaling is a good way to get emotions out. holding ice cubes or snapping a rubber band on your wrist is a better way to hurt yourself. you can draw on wherever you were going to cut with a red marker if you like to see the blood.

No don't do it. You'll regret it later and that regret sucks big time.

I use to draw butterflies with sharpies on the places I cut and try not to cut there until the butterfly fades...that way, I don't kill the butterfly. I know it's childish but it worked for me.

You're stronger than this.

No I'm not seeing a T my parents don't listen to me when I say I need one. And I've tried the ice and rubber band it makes me want to do it more. Is there something wrong with me?

no of course not! They didn't actually work for me either, but it does help some people. Have you tried the butterfly project? or you can try listening to cheerful music. Drawing. Playing games. Something to distract yourself when you want to.

That's the problem. I spend all day everyday distracting myself and pushing the thought of it away. All it needs is one little opening and I'm reaching for the blade...

it gets easier the longer you go. put the blades somewhere that's difficult to get to, so that even if you decide to cut yourself you have to think a little before you can actually do it. do you have a friend you can talk to? you can always send me a private message. it helps to have someone to talk to about it, and even to check in on you. that's how I stopped - a friend asked me every single day if I had, so I stopped cutting to be able to tell her no.

I know it’s hard but try not to give yourself that opening.

People have left me because of my depression. Its annoying to them. It's stupid to them.

they don't understand. I have also lost friends. they seem to lack patience to deal with me. but you can always talk to me, and I totally understand