Hi all,
Long time reader, first time poster. Quick to the point, I sense that not trusting your T is a common theme in these boards. I just wanted to say I am going through that now and wanted to know how you guys deal with it?

A little bit about myself: I have been going to my T for almost 2 years. Recently, I started to see her twice a week and also taking 40mg Celexa and 1mg Ativan. However, last week I went on a long vacation trip and felt just so happy. During that time, I decided to stop taking my meds just to see how I felt. Fast forward one week later, I am getting the dreaded "head-spinning/vomiting" symptoms. I read today that I am getting the withdrawl symtoms

I tried calling me psychiatrist but he hasn't gotten back to me. Of course, all my trust issues I had toward my psychiatrist and T has started to bubble up again. Thoughts such as

1.) does she really care for me?
2.) is therapy just a scam?
3.) are meds really helpful or is it all placebo effect?

are key themes.

Also, for the first time, I decided to look up my T's work experience and bio. I swore in the past I would never do it because I believed in judging not her past qualifications, but the work she does to help me. Needlessly to say, I started to question her profession and decided to look her up today for the first time.

I guess I am still skeptical about the whole therapy/medicine combo - especially with the whole side effects I am getting now. What really is making me confused is when I went on vacation and when I didn't take the meds, I felt GREAT. Now I feel like crap because of the withdrawal.

Anyways, just wanted to get this off my chest. My T is gone till next week, my psychiatrist hasn't gotten back to me, so I have no one to bounce this around with Any comments would be greatly appreciated!