Trippin: You didn't hijack or derail! I'm usually in that state of "mad genius" but since moving to this ****ed up little island? I've had to be more careful.
Pretty much everyone here illegally owns guns. Up in the states? If you piss someone off, they'll either call the cops (big ****ing deal, since they can't prove anything) or they'll yell at you/threaten to kick your *** (yet again, big ****ing deal). So it was easier to be careless...
I suppose without the outlet of being able to act out, my sense of self-preservation backslid to where I acted out in the only place I know is safe: my home. While it's monumentally retarded, I now recognize my error. The only problem now is finding a new outlet.
And yes, too much honesty is equally damaging as lying. Which is why I partake in both.

h-b: My verbal IQ is only marginally higher than my non-verbal. I was really good at the puzzles & mathematical ****, myself. Granted, I haven't taken an IQ test since 4th grade. I'd like to again, but only once I regain the intellectual finesse I used to have back before the deterioration began.
Ehhhhhh I wasn't being self-righteous. This person may not know me, but the notion is ridiculous to confuse self-awareness with incorrectness. Because trust me -- I have convinced myself out of recognizing my problems too many times to count. I don't even think of them as problems, except for through the perspectives of other people.
But I'm not an idiot. And there is only so long you can delude yourself before you can't ignore a very clear pattern. And I have enough delusions as it is; I don't need to entertain any more... Though that isn't to say that I'm by no means a severe case seeing as I have a great deal of perspective on myself.