Thanks Rose, I just get warn out and I don't want to have to keep remembering this anymore. And I know that my brain struggles when I am asked to recall it and stay in it like this.

Actually there is a good video that discusses what takes place in the brain with PTSD.
It is a long video and PTSD is towards the end of it. I posted it in Other Mental health discussion forum because it has a lot of interesting info on the brain.

I think the only way I can prove it other than the scientific studies we have now is to find a psychiatrist/neurologist who can take images of my brain. I know that this ongoing situation "hurt" my brain because I can feel it. I don't want it to be that way, but it just is. I don't hallucinate etc. I just remember and it is vivid and it is sad.
I am tired of remembering it and like I said, at any time I could get a call to finish my deposition too.

This just isn't right my T told me to try to do this work in pieces, but it is still hard and soooo triggering. Sorry, I am just having a bad day today, I tried to work on it some more today and it just brings out to much emotions etc. I try so hard not to let that happen, I really do.

Ugh, I have to work tomarrow too, I have a long day and I hope I have the energy.

Brain Function: The Limbic System & PTSD – Video lecture overview of brain systems in relation to PTSD.

There is a good reason to stay away from "toxic" people and situations. This is a long video and not just about PTSD. Actually the PTSD is near the end.

But you are right Rose, this lawsuit needs to end so I can focus on healing.