Hi,

I'm feeling stressed and overwhelmed, exhausted and I hit a, figurative, wall yesterday. Now I feel wiped out.

6 weeks ago I hurt my back at work. It's not completely healed which means I feel pretty useless at work because I can't do a large part of my job.

My grandmother is in hospital with a new diagnosis of lymphoma.

My aunt disowned me. "If you need my genes or body I'll be there, otherwise I want nothing to do with you." Her issues, I know, but still hurts.

My manager has no interest in supporting his staff and has worsened an already toxic environment.

I'm already annoyed with myself for not being able to follow through on plans to eat better and move more.

My room is a disaster and is getting to me. I'm 35 and I need my Mom to come help me clean my room! Fortunately she is the type of mom who will do such things.

I have so much paperwork to for Worker's comp and my insurance company but I can't seem to get a handle on it.

I'm not sleeping at night. I just lie there awake. My partner snores which isn't helping, but even when he's not there I lie awake.

I have all the books, and have been in therapy for ever but I can't seem to apply what they say to my life. It makes sense in my head, but not my heart. Does that make sense?

I don't want to feel like this, who would? I'm afraid I actually do, or why wouldn't I be more committed to doing what needs to be done?

Arggghhhhhh

Thanks for letting me vent