Overwhelmed

Hi,

I'm feeling stressed and overwhelmed, exhausted and I hit a, figurative, wall yesterday. Now I feel wiped out.

6 weeks ago I hurt my back at work. It's not completely healed which means I feel pretty useless at work because I can't do a large part of my job.

My grandmother is in hospital with a new diagnosis of lymphoma.

My aunt disowned me. "If you need my genes or body I'll be there, otherwise I want nothing to do with you." Her issues, I know, but still hurts.

My manager has no interest in supporting his staff and has worsened an already toxic environment.

I'm already annoyed with myself for not being able to follow through on plans to eat better and move more.

My room is a disaster and is getting to me. I'm 35 and I need my Mom to come help me clean my room! Fortunately she is the type of mom who will do such things.

I have so much paperwork to for Worker's comp and my insurance company but I can't seem to get a handle on it.

I'm not sleeping at night. I just lie there awake. My partner snores which isn't helping, but even when he's not there I lie awake.

I have all the books, and have been in therapy for ever but I can't seem to apply what they say to my life. It makes sense in my head, but not my heart. Does that make sense?

I don't want to feel like this, who would? I'm afraid I actually do, or why wouldn't I be more committed to doing what needs to be done?

Arggghhhhhh

Thanks for letting me vent

Hello & Welcome, Tsuki632!
Excellent. There's a time for getting help doing even "the little things," and that time is now.
This is another place where help is called for. There may be community or other resources.
YES!
Vent some more. This forum thread is yours.

Feeling overwhelmed can be so exhausting, try to be easy with yourself after all you are only human. A back injury can be tricky to heal from so be sure not to get frustrated and over do it.

It really does make sense to me how hard it is to apply what you know will help to your life, it is something that I have struggled with many times through the years.

I found writing out what I was thinking on this forum helpful. It gets it out of my head. I also get perspective from people who understand. I don't feel like I'm in therapy, and I also don't feel like I'm burdening my friends and family.

Thanks