I am about to fall. I feel myself slipping. I am feeling intense pain of the truth of the past. I don't know if I'm man enough to face this. My life has become like a glass house that was stoned to death. I am empty. i feel hopeless. I don't want to fall. It was not better drunk or high. I know. I am just not that smart a person to think of a way to go through this pain. I need God.