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my dad just got home drunk. i called him upstairs to ask him something, and he goes "oh, what now!" and came upstairs, and when i asked him my question, he replied "is that it, is that all you called me upstairs to say!" and he gave me a really patranising look, turned and walked away. i didnt even do anything wrong. see what i mean, i am invisible and nobody cares in this house! its things like that that make dark days seem darker! i hate him when hes been drinking, he has the look of evil in his eyes, and its getting so frequent now all im doing is walking on eggshells. its so hard living here, i so so wish i could walk away from it, get on a plane and fly away for good. i could quite easily turn my back on this house and its contents! im still feeling upset and now im that little bit worse! whats wrong with me!

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This bit in particular made me feel so sad. It sounds like you're in a really invalidating environment.
You sound like a really lovely person. It's a shame your family can't see that.