Clearly. Yes. And...been there done that...I only needed a few hours to decide that I'd go even more insane listening to people worse off than me 24/7.
Well, I suppose I will answer here because otherwise I probably won't give it the attention it deserves. Those who don't see all of me I either don't trust, feel they are judgemental, or I think they're just a 'little too together' and therefore I consider them a flight risk. There's usually some quality I admire in them though that makes me want to keep them around. People who do see all of me I generally trust more, they are more patient individuals, less judgemental and more laid back. I wouldn't say I value them less but I do feel that they have some flaws, something that makes them more human. That isn't to put them down as I still consider that they have far fewer flaws than I do. I have noticed in hindsight though that significant others that showed a selfish or unkind side generally saw the worst of me. I think it's a way of subconsciously getting them to reject me because I find rejection so horrible I can't bear to do it to somebody else. And as a second motivating factor, I just don't want to go back into isolation and if/when I do get up the energy to try again, the next one may be even worse. I think that some of the S.I. I've done in the past is an extreme version of this. "Do to yourself what you'd like to do to the other" because you don't (consciously) want them to leave you. Subconsciously you know they are hurting you so you'd like to seriously hurt them. Come to think of it, that also seems to be awfully close to the definition of 'splitting'.

I expect no less of you. Clearly you are bored out of your skull (another symptom of BPD if you ask me)...even to the point of trying to entertain yourself in a 'not always so entertaining' forum. I admire your spunk. And the fact that you do have at least one character trait that is consistent enough to be considered part of an actual 'identity'. Hmmm...perhaps you are not as far gone as you think.