So last week was my first full week of work and grr I am having a bit of a hard time beings I haven't been assisting since June... I have been running around like crazy on my lunches getting kids into school and us into a new place. I am so so tired right now because I packed what I could this weekend and damn it I was packing my daughters stuff and found a picture my daughter drew that said I hate my mom. None of my kids have ever told me this!!!! So I had my friend whom she is close with talk to her and all she could say is I want my old mom back. The mom that doesn't yell at me, the one who doesn't always seem to be mad at me I don't like that we never have money anymore.
Grr I am so upset on so many levels right now!!!! First off my daughter is the BIGGEST PIG, argues with me over EVERYTHING even if I tell her the sky is blue and damn it I am just friggen pissed off!!! I am a single mom, I did not cheat on me!!!! I can't help that my kids don't have a male figure in their life!!! Actually I don't want a male figure in their life. I just don't understand how she can't see that even tho things are hard atleast we aren't having to deal with a drunk jerk, walking on eggshells all the time!!!
If I had one single person in my life that fu**in supported me or was even there for me besides ONE FRIEND who is very busy herself as a single mom of 3 I swear I would just walk away.... This is now TWO of my children that have just ***** on me!!! My 14 year old stole my car, his friend wrecked it, I ended up loosing my job because of it and now my daughter fu**ing hates me. I feel so alone all the time because it is literally just my kids and I and OBVIOUSLY I AM DOING A *****Y JOB AT THAT TOO!!! I can't even give up either cuz who would be there for them?!?! NOBODY!!!