If I could give up I would

So last week was my first full week of work and grr I am having a bit of a hard time beings I haven't been assisting since June... I have been running around like crazy on my lunches getting kids into school and us into a new place. I am so so tired right now because I packed what I could this weekend and damn it I was packing my daughters stuff and found a picture my daughter drew that said I hate my mom. None of my kids have ever told me this!!!! So I had my friend whom she is close with talk to her and all she could say is I want my old mom back. The mom that doesn't yell at me, the one who doesn't always seem to be mad at me I don't like that we never have money anymore.
Grr I am so upset on so many levels right now!!!! First off my daughter is the BIGGEST PIG, argues with me over EVERYTHING even if I tell her the sky is blue and damn it I am just friggen pissed off!!! I am a single mom, I did not cheat on me!!!! I can't help that my kids don't have a male figure in their life!!! Actually I don't want a male figure in their life. I just don't understand how she can't see that even tho things are hard atleast we aren't having to deal with a drunk jerk, walking on eggshells all the time!!!
If I had one single person in my life that fu**in supported me or was even there for me besides ONE FRIEND who is very busy herself as a single mom of 3 I swear I would just walk away.... This is now TWO of my children that have just ***** on me!!! My 14 year old stole my car, his friend wrecked it, I ended up loosing my job because of it and now my daughter fu**ing hates me. I feel so alone all the time because it is literally just my kids and I and OBVIOUSLY I AM DOING A *****Y JOB AT THAT TOO!!! I can't even give up either cuz who would be there for them?!?! NOBODY!!!

Hi,
I'm really sorry things are in bad right now. I agree with you about not needing to have someone ard that requires everyone else working on eggshells. I know what it's like to have no support system. I'm in a state with no family and I have a 6 yr old.

I encourage you to contact your local NAMI (www.nami.org) and your local department of mental health. Consider participanting in support groups and workshops. WRAP by Mary Ellan Copeland (wellness recovery action plan) would be a good program for you.

I came across this today and it touched my soul....

"I believe in the sun even when it is not shining And I believe in love in love, even when there's no one there. And I believe in God even when He is silent.

I believe through any trial, there is always a way but sometimes in this suffering and hopeless despair My heart cries for shelter, to know someone's there But a voice rises within me, saying hold on my child, I'll give you strength, I'll give you hope. Just stay a little while.*

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining And I believe in love in love, even when there's no one there. And I believe in God even when He is silent. I believe through my trials there is always a way.*

May there someday be sunshine
May there someday be happiness
May there someday be love
May there someday be peace ..."

-Unknown

Written during WW2, on the wall of a cellar by a Jew in the Cologne concentration camp.