A, I'm sorry I walked out in tears today. I just can't explain it. I'm sorry you're worried. I'm sorry I didn't reply to your text and I'm sorry I probably won't be able to answer when you call. and I'm sorry I did try and call the helpline but couldn't get through and I just needed to calm down.
I don't know what to do. I know you are trying to help. thank you. I just can't make sense of it right now.

it's coming up to dads anniversary. it's the Monday of the week you're away. I don't know how to deal with it. how to deal with him being gone.
and how to deal with this being my date I promised myself I wouldn't let it keep going after then if it wasn't okay. I'm not planning. but I want to so bad.

you checked if I was seeing S this week and I said yes, what I didn't say is that I'm so close to canceling. this week and the next appt in the week you're away.

I'm so sorry. it's okay. I'll understand if you give up on me.