hi everyone,

well i'm posting here- as a rant really.. i don't expect any responses

but.. what do you do when you've been suffering for so long with mental illness, that it's got to the point where you don't even know where you want your life to go anymore?

that's me lately... i've been having no desire to do anything anymore- i've no goals or wishes for things i want from life, i think i've got to the stage where everything i've tried so far for me has just beee a total disaster, and my life is like hanging by a rope.. i want to die really badly, but don't, if that makes sense.

just don't know what to do if i don't even have thoughts of a direction that i want to go.