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Originally Posted by shattered sanity
hi everyone,
well i'm posting here- as a rant really.. i don't expect any responses
but.. what do you do when you've been suffering for so long with mental illness, that it's got to the point where you don't even know where you want your life to go anymore?
that's me lately... i've been having no desire to do anything anymore- i've no goals or wishes for things i want from life, i think i've got to the stage where everything i've tried so far for me has just beee a total disaster, and my life is like hanging by a rope.. i want to die really badly, but don't, if that makes sense.
just don't know what to do if i don't even have thoughts of a direction that i want to go.
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I understand you completely, I've been at this stalling point in my life where I don't have goals, hopes, or even wishes. I pretty much have the same emotionless face plastered on all the time. I don't feel like I'm going anywhere. I'm still alive, I can feel that I am, but it seems like I'm just going through the motions.. and not actually contributing to society. I've wanted to die for some time now, but can't help but wonder if I'll miss living, If I'll be missed, If I could of change how I feel and make everything better, but the idea of being peaceful and sane for the rest of eternity just appeal to me so much more than staying here.
