Simon.. you are not alone.. i know we are typed words with no faces, but we are here for you... you do not have to do anything you are not ready for. Is it possible for you to make an anonymous call to foil his application somehow?

Anyway... I totally understand how you feel about what it would do to your dad and the guilt you would have. i am the same way with my mom and her having a heart condition. i cannot confront her and she was one of my abusers.

So take care of YOU first and foremost and then worry about the rest. Thinking of you... you are strong. you wil be okay.. Faith