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Originally Posted by Sam2
You have stumbled on the down side of instant communication. People tend to twitter or blog or whatever, send it, and then can't take it back. Part of what is coming through, to me anyway, is that the incident of the twitter took some of the trust you had for your girlfriend.
It sounds like you are trying to deal with your own problems, and piling the relationship problems on top of it. Have you considered counselling for both of you at the same time? That way, you have a mediator and a safe place to discuss what is bothering both of you. That can be painful, but you can't keep a relationship going if there is "something missing". Your girlfriend seems to be picking up your feelings and wonders what she did or didn't do.
One thing you should take into consideration is are you trying to stay in a relationship because you truly love your girlfriend, or are you trying to avoid rejection, being alone or reassuring yourself of your manhood? (Let's face it, we males have fragile egos when it comes to performance etc. ). You are the only one that can answer those questions. I hope things work out for the both of you.
Sam2
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I love her. I honestly feel like I love her; when she's not around, everything feels out-of-place and depressing. I miss her terribly when she's not here, I love everything about her - her voice, her beauty, her maturity (she made a mistake. I'm not going to hold it against her; she's still very mature.) her everything. She's perfect to me, and she says I'm perfect to her. Like I said - I can't find any reason not to love her and the mere thought of it being true, that I don't, the mere thought of me leaving her - both of those things
HURT SO BADLY.
I of course don't want to hurt her either, but I still feel like I love her; I don't understand any of it. She's not in a bad mood, you got that wrong. She's not feeling negative because I've not let her know that I'm having these doubts and we've not had any sexual problems as of late. All of that is done with.
She still knows I'm going through some anxiety/depression issues, but when we're together, we still have a good time regardless of whatever's in my head because I'm not going to let it ruin the time we have together. She's doing quite well; I'm making her happy. I feel like if I didn't love her, the passion would not be there and she'd pick that up - but yet she hasn't, because I still show passion for her. I don't pull away from her, because I don't want to; I don't not kiss her or not hug her, because I don't want to; I don't turn away from her, because I don't want to. I don't want to do any of those things.
It seems like, to some extent, I'm doing this to myself rather than it actually being there; like I'm manifesting this stuff in my brain.