I totally get it! T's and Drs think it will help to have someone "check in" with and hold you accountable but they don't understand how that can become part of the mental game we play. I know when I was letting my dr do weigh-ins I became obsessed with not gaining and would plan it out to the exact clothes I would wear when I would go in- I knew logically that it was defeating the point of going in and I just had to put the brakes on it. Even now, when I think about going in to my dr. for something completely unrelated to the eating disorder I am acutely aware of where my weight was last time I went in, and feel like I have to lose more before I can return. I have made the decision to just refuse to be weighed-should I need to go back for something like strep throat or whatever.