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Originally Posted by Anne2.0
You could say "I want you to contact and talk to my old T about how you could be a better therapist to me", but I'm not sure that's really the issue. The issue is that you haven't yet built the kind of relationship with him where you can tell him what you need from him-- I think, anyway. I doubt it would be helpful for your therapy for him to talk to your old T, and even asking the question this way seems to be to be a backhanded way of getting someone else (your old T) to be responsible for making your current therapy work. I think you are the one responsible for making your therapy work.
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You are absolutely positively correct. I am scared to death to tell this guy what I need from him. Don't ask me why, but I am. I'm even scared to tell him that I don't know what I need from him.
What in heaven's name is wrong with me? Why can't I handle this better?
I feel like a burden to this guy already. I want to run away.
I'm in a rather nasty little spot here, where I feel damned if I do and damned if I don't.
And it's compounded by the fact that, in these predicaments before, I had someone that I could trust to help me through it.
I'm trying to cut myself a little slack here - it took a long time to build that trust. It was an amazing thing, but it's serving as a very sharp contrast to where I am now.
ETA: I would like to see him for an emergency appointment, but I'm even afraid to call him.