Thanks so much for the responses! I'm sorry that other people have similar issues, but hearing about it helps me with my social phobia. My brain tells me I'm the only person who's scared of these things, and then it tells me that I'm too broken to overcome it.

Sorry I didn't respond earlier. I got phobic about PC for a while again. Hoping to get back on the facing-things wagon.

Finally erased the voicemails yesterday. Now I still have to apply for jobs. Maybe the panic from running out of money will overcome my anxiety about speaking to people? I can usually come through in a crisis.

I do so much better when I have a regular schedule. The unknown trips me out. But I have to face the unknown to get a job and have a regular schedule. It's so overwhelming! Ahh! Feels better to vent; thanks!!!