know what i mean? i just want to flip the switch, or unplug, whatever, and go *poof*. but, i dont have the energy to actually DO anything ( repeat, I am NOT going to do anything!).

i just want to be unplugged. i'm worn out and empty.

what really annoys me is the piles of guilt others throw at us. ya know what? i've lived for 10 years fighting HARD to beat depression with meds and therapy. how much longer am I supposed to stay around for other's satsifaction? i had no children for a reason - so i could leave when i wanted. i knew someday i would.

of course i add my own guilt because i know there are SO many people dying right now, clinging to life, and here i am ACHING to die. this blows.

dead girl sinking. grrrr at me.

sorry for the drama. i had to vent.

em