How old are you?

It sounds like serious OCD to me. Im sry that your parents are not any help. I know how frustrating that is. Will they take you to see a therapist? Hon, you sound just like me... exactly before I got help. I suggest medication and therapy ASAP.

Ive been through it all. its hell. I know. But it can be done. You don't have to feel like this... promise. PM me if you want. I think I might be able to help you... or at least help you see that you aren't alone...