I'm constantly on the outside looking in on my own/actions(such as what I say to people in conversations and what are my motives for saying it, such as did I just say it to be heard/insecurtiy, bc i'm interested in what i'm saying, or saying it out of pride, boastfulness, and i'm doing the same things to others actions) i'm so sensitive to other people's feelings that it drives me crazy..at times I'll be happy with the progress i'm making(as far as right meds) and then i'll completely change my opinion and say I need to go a different route. I'm so indecisive. Constantly worrying which meds I need to get on to help my symptoms best, what my true diagnosis is, if i'm paranoid schitzophrenic, autistic, or It's just a really bad case of ocd. It's driving me crazy. I just want to be able to go through out my day in stride without so much **** going on in my head and be what I want to be in life.